Dear Readers;
I am afraid, for the first time on this blog, that I am writing today as a human who is finding it hard to be grateful for much right now. I am so full of sorrow and conflict that I feel like I may burst. I am sharing this as a humble reminder that even I, Ms. Gratitude have moments where it is hard for me to see past things.
I have nowhere left to turn but here to reach out on the thin thread of hope that one of my beautiful nephews will read this and know that I still love them with all my heart. I want them to be a part of my life; I want to be there to encourage their amazing talent, to hear about what they are up to, to hug them and tell them how much I admire them...but due to circumstances I cannot bypass, I was told I can not have any contact with them right now through no fault of my own.
I will not go into detail on why their mom has cut off all contact from the Boren's from her and my nephews; that story is not the important thing here. I will always respect her as their mom and I have to respect her when it comes to her telling me I cannot contact them. I pray in my heart that it is temporary because I adore those boys and I admire her too. She goes through a lot of hardships and the relationship with our family is complicated for her. But that is not the here nor there; The important thing is that I want somewhere in this world where my nephews can see how much they are loved. I want some place in this world where I can tell them how proud I am of them, and how lucky I am to have them as a part of my family.
Somewhere to tell Amazing Adam to keep pursuing his incredible photography gift. I was so thrilled and impressed when I took him out to take photos on his birthday. His natural eye for symmetry and his incredible speed at picking up how to use the camera I gave him stunned me beyond words. I was so excited to take him hiking in the springtime, and I want him to know that I did not break my promise. I tried with all my heart to get the OK to take you hiking for pictures but I was told that I could not. Know that I would never break a promise to you if I could help it Adam. I love you with all my soul and no matter how long I cannot speak to you or how far you are, I always will. This whole family will. You are a remarkable young man and I will cherish that day I got to have you to myself for photos forever. Keep improving your talent and don't be afraid to share it with the world. They all need a little of the beauty you have to share.
Andrew; I want you to know that you are equally talented in the creative aspect and I loved your sonic cartoons. That story line flowed so well and the animations were awesome. You have come so far since the first time I saw that sketch book of yours, and you are so dedicated to always being a better artist. Your passion for sketches and animation are beyond amazing and I know that you are going to do great things with that incredible focus you have. When you are dedicated to something, you see it through and there is no hell or high water that will stop you. I love that about you. You are such a sweet hearted man, and just an all around good guy. I love you so much. Keep drawing always, and know that even if I cannot tell you to your face, I am always here in my corner of the internet praying for your success in life. I love you beyond word, "kid" and I want you to know that. I am so proud of you.
For as long as you cannot be a part of my life, every card I make and cannot send you will be posted here. every song I write or sing about you will be here on this blog. And I will never stop trying to show you how loved you are.
even if only in this little corner of the internet, I want you both to know that this family has never left you. We have and always will love you both more that can ever be expressed. This letter is the only way I have left to tell you that. Please do not ever forget how much we love you. If you ever need or want us in your life, we and I especially, have and always will be here for you no matter what distance of length or time is put between us. We are here to tear apart playstations with you, take you on photo explorations, go to the movies, drive you to family parties and deliver hugs and cookies whenever you need. If you ever get to read this, know always that we do love you. And do not ever let go of that fact.
We all miss you terribly, but by some power in heaven, I hope that the love I am sending you reaches you somehow and that someday I will get to hug you both again. Until then, be strong and well "kiddos". And no, I will NEVER stop calling you that. You are always "Kiddos" to me. :p
Love,
Aunt Jett and Family.
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